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Sunday, April 29, 2007 oh my! i'm so adding micheal buble's latest cd "call my irresponsible" onto my list!! 06S07's BBQ~  ah ben, trying to figure out how to position the charcoals in a pit with that depth!  guys position the charcoal and get the fire started, girls fan hard to get the fire bigger! it's all about teamwork!  guy's turn to bbq so we're just enjoying the food. :]  what's a bbq without alcohol? but jeremy got ALL red and hot after drinking. :] sk is not as red but he got a little tipsy!!  maybe a little too tipsy!! he was going to kiss the cockroach!YIKES!  anyone wants a kiss?  having fun bbq-ing!  ah ben! the first one to be pushed into the swimming pool.  the target is secured!!  the goal is reached!!  we girls:]  the guys acting tipsy!  06S07's class BBQ!!it seems like i wasn't fated to let go of you. everytime i try, u do something to bring me back. u're so wonderful, are u sure ure not just my dream? Friday, April 27, 2007 i finally had some time to stabilise things. no, actually, nothing's wrong to start with. i was just unhappy with certain stuff. and certain things leads to disappointment. and with the tests then, i barely wanted to think. but now, i would not procrastinate further and i would make up my mind. here it is.. my resolve: 1. i will not procrastinate anymore. things that ought to be done, will be done. 2. i will not do things that will result in me saying this sentence "i should be more determined..." 3. i will reach my goals. 4. i will win my inner voice. i have a hunger for knowledge, and i have the lust for you. you made my day again without fail:] the small actions u did yesterday left me feeling happy till today:] Thursday, April 26, 2007 :( why is so tiring to smile? i dun even have the energy to be happy now. :( i want my happiness back. give it back to me. it's mine. :( Tuesday, April 24, 2007 are u sure u are real? many a times i tried, but i always end up with the same conclusions. i'm tired of this already, if u dun bother taking it seriously, there's nothing i will do bout it. and certain ppl thinks they are right all the time. he is just that insensitive and self-centered. even when i give u that pissed off face, u still continue talking bout it, i guess i know what it represents. i only have one word to tell u, whatever. maybe certain friendships aren't meant to be treasured. yesterday was a great day. simply cos i managed to talk to lulu over the phone:] somehow, she nv fails to cheer me up:] muahaha:] i have a surprise for her:] grinne:] things have definitely become more interesting lately:] focus seems to be shifting back and forth. more talks, more understanding, more worrying. :] jiayou you~ must rest k? grinne :] hang in there!! :]  06S07:]:] gosh, these ppl make me happy:] class cip! project C.A.R.E. i love the colour of the shirt:] and i had memorable fun that day:] thanks zen! tml's an exciting day for us!! facilitators. we stayed overnight:] and our bikes are actually the same colour combi as our clothings:] when i'm sad, the image of u simply made me smiled. there's nth more that i cld ask for:] the pile up of nescafes. Thursday, April 19, 2007 it's not that i'm complacent, its just that i dun give a damn bout it anymore. why the hell did i turn out like this? why am i doing this? is it becos of him? why did i avoid him today? why do i feel so uninterested in the things? i cant go on like this. what is my resolve? watching youtube everyday just to pass time away? eat the whole day away? or slp the entire universe away? did i mean the things i told her? i'm very disappointed in myself. maybe she's right. maybe i'm getting into depression. this is so unlike of me. SO UNLIKE. at least he made me smiled this morning. :] Wednesday, April 18, 2007 i didn't know he can make me feel that bad. or maybe just that it happens to be a bad day for me too. he made me so afraid of him. why are all my choices wrong? i dun understand. how did he find out in the first place? maybe i lapsed too much. i mustn't be afraid. i CANT be afraid. i mustn't cry becos of it. i must be strong. i must just face reality and change the situation. i hate the situation i'm in now. i have to work hard to change it. i HAVE to. but still, why am i feeling so down?. :( Sunday, April 15, 2007  if byakuya vs ichimaru. who will win?  gosh! i hate my house internet!! i think its singnet's problem man! SO IRRITATING! i cant view my tagboard or anyone else's one for that matter. but all's not lost cos i can connect to m1 and use the net. anyways.. i had the best afternoon yesterday! tho it would be better if lulu can make it. anyway, we went heeren to eat in the village! it brings back good times man! we're forever buying the same old stuff but they're nice! but anyways, after that, we all went hunting for our icecreams and went to far east to shop for stuff for the bday girl! i swear those heels looks damn hot but it'll definitely hurt aLOT! but oh wells.. and some of the shirts is just fabulous! i wonder why i dint notice all those before. well, i really enjoyed shopping with them! we should do it more often! i'm currently being put to a test by them or rather py. so we'll see what's the outcome! grinne:]picture time!  the nerd cow at the village!  all of us went into the wheelchair bound toilet together:] to wash hand! grinne:]  arrrhhh.. one of the best icecreams in town. they serve the best hazelnut icecream! i forgot what's the shop name but it's in taka! THIS IS A NEW ITEM IN MY WISHLIST! 30+. BUT IT"S SO NICE!!  aint this pretty??i've thought about it already. i'm more excited to see the real him. tho it seems the other way but i feel more at ease with him. while the other may be pleasant to my imagination, but i cant go down that road anymore. he's out of my life. i mustn't think bout him anymore.. i mustn't. Friday, April 13, 2007  i love my classmates!!! i used up angeline's packet of tissue during the first period on thurs and was coughing like hell. but when i return to class after attending to the J1 civics, they surprise me by giving me a packet of tissue from angeline and a packet of strepsils from huiting. it helped ALOT. thanks girls:]and then, i received a gift from prof kathay. it was an ashley pig! and some stuff brought from the moreton bay. she bought the pigs on the day me and ziyan went out. she was saying her kids would love it but she ended up giving us! and wonderful ziyan gave me her pig!! dun ask me what i do with two pigs. it's an ashley pig! i dun mind owning many of them! THANKS ZIYAN!  yay!! finally we took a picture with all of us wearing our crumplers! BUT my ultimate plan is not carried out YET!! GRINNE:] muahaha:] michell and me:] took took much of the J1s, so decided to take ourselves:]i realised i did this long ago but forgot to post it so anyways, here it is :] 1. Single, taken or crushing? SINGLE AND CRUSHING :]:] 2. Are you happy with your life now? yep:] kinda:] i have all my basic necessities so why shouldn't i be? 3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast? don't u have to be in love first to know he's the right person? 4. Have you ever been heart broken? sighs.. yeah. 5. Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating love is acceptable? NOPE! 6. Would you take someone back even if he/she cheats on you? what do u think? i will only have a relationship with someone who makes me HAPPY. so if he cheated on me before, he already hurt me. so NO! 7. Have you talked about marriage to someone else before? someone = girl or guy? anyway, both also have ba. but only to my closest friends:] 8. Do you want children? i'm not sure. they're cute and what not. BUT i'm afraid of the prospect of giving birth. 9. How many? two:] hopefully one boy and one girl and the boy would come first 10. Would you consider adoption? dun think so. 11. If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him/her to let you know his/her feelings? tell me straight lo:] 12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships? yepyep :] 13. Do you believe in love at first sight? yeah kinda:] but i dunno whether i would pursue love at first sight. afterall, we should be going after personalities. 14. Do you believe you can change someone? if the person let me. 15. If you could get married somewhere, where would it be? perhaps by a super beautiful beach with clear blue waters during sunset:] 16. Do you give in easily when fighting? depends on the situation. 17. Do you have feelings for anyone now? grinne. :] 18. Do you ever wish that you could have had someone but you messed it up? kinda.. but in a slightly different situation. 19. Have you ever broken a heart? i dunno.. 20. If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you are deeply in love with, what will you do? i would let her have him unless the guy is in a relationship with me then i would have to respect his decision to stay or pursue my best friend. 21. Are you missing anyone right now? yeah:] 22. Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs. emma, celeste, xian, kristy, ziyan. thanks ziyan for msging me that msg. i think the results have yet really sink in but i know what i'm about to put myself thru wont be nice. i will press on!! thanks xiann for that short para that was dedicated to me. it just made me remember the kind of attitude that i should be having. which will make my life easier. i will jiayou girl! you must too!! Wednesday, April 11, 2007  gosh, i think i look like a guy in this pic.
well.. actually, i'm trying to do the collage with a picture of a soft toy. but the system seems smart enough. :] picture time!!like FINALLY.  expensive fruit juice!! i bought three! this is the first bottle! orange. i bought it for my 'chiong the night mugging session" but i've slept my entire week away.  yay!! two hearts side by side! SO SWEET!! and yeah, it's the stress reliever heart that was given during blood donation. the work of hanyang! on one fine sat when michell,celest,ms kim and me were eating in kfc, hy's bball plan was sabotaged by the heavy downpour. so he came in and ate all our mashed potatoes instead. i'm kinda surprised he dint get sick of it after the third one. naughty naughty!! someone trying to paste a note on fav! hahah.. i like ben's shades! they're real nice! how i wished i could have stolen it. grinne:]our own little pe after our actual pe lesson!!  look at erika carrying all the bags! 3 in total! and i had to run up to her to take the pictures for ziyan while carrying many bags myself! i was carrying two BIG BAGS and one file with load of crap on it. it's HEAVY okay!! see!! my friend pasted this on my bag after carrying it up to pd41 for my maths lesson. poor her. she almost fell while carrying my bag. :[  guess what are these??  shaoyong [the suay guy] and xueting on her bday celebration!! Xueting's bday! all of us gang up and said we were wearing love feista shirt that day but we secretly passed the msg that it was in fact bannister so that the love birds would stand out for the whole day. poor sy.. sorry!!sighs.. when ur heart and mind cant be set into one, it always ends up in internal struggle. i'm just so sick of it already. at this point of time, i dun even see myself trying unlike the weeks before. i'm afraid that i might had given up already. :( this is bad. and i seriously couldn't care more anymore. up to this stage, i'm already struggling. and my hair's getting thinner and i've been puking up often. it would be a matter of time that death would creep into my dreams. i dunno how to align my heart and mind. :( Saturday, April 07, 2007 i just rmbed one weird habit of mine. i dun go out after i bath. hahaha.. when i bath in the evening, it means that i wont go out anymore. i have no idea why but to me, when i go out, means i'm dirty again. so must bath. home is the cleanest (and dustiest) place! hahaha.. and i have an obsession with notebooks. dun ask me why. and i love the azone "team azone" a4 GREEN notebook!! it's so beautiful! it's nicer than the yellow, blue, red and black one!! i gotta own more of it man! but like very waste money right? can someone suggest what i do with notebooks?? dwang!! i cant upload pictures again! getting so irritated!! anyways, i had fun at rara's house that day tho i was super ttired from my trip. but so fun!! grinne:] but now, it's time to study!! i bought coffee and snacks to prepare me thru the night!! grinne:] tml still have cip but oh wells, i will survive!! anyone wants a date with me?? germx! we shall book one day first!! No chance, No way I wont say it, no, no you swoon, you sigh, why deny it, uh-oh! it's to cliche i wont say i'm in love :] -i wont say (i'm in love) [hercules] Thursday, April 05, 2007 muahaha:] i'm happy today!! cos the ending of my day turn out well:] cos i went to cafe cartel with my favourite person, and i saw a super cute guy!! well, to others he may not be cute, but he has the eyes:] i'm one who's super mesmerised by eyes. be it big or small, as long as its nice, i'll be totally head over heel over that guy:] to add on to it, his braces made him look cute!! when he took the bread for us, he looked so cute!! but when we left, i dint get to see him. however!! when i parted ways with my favourite person, i saw him at the entrance of cafe cartel! and when he saw me, he smiled and waved!! what a great way to end the day:] thanks michelle! ure the best girl!! so sorry i made u go all the way back with me when u were actually going to another place:] but ure the best!! :] i'm smiling to myself becos of u:] it's interesting why i keep thinking bout u. perhaps i interpreted myself wrongly. or maybe on some level, i just really hope for it:] for now, i'll cross my fingers tight:] grinne:] Sunday, April 01, 2007 let's see.. last wk was actually a pretty disappointing week for me (personal reasons) but i finally got out with ying on friday! thanks for the treat girl! and we actually witness a live fashion shows there in marina square. i'm so in love with the model's hair!! it's really silky and smooth. i wonder what they put on it. anyway, i actually got to see the models face to face and they are SO SKINNY!! why must models be so skinny? they actually dun look good in certain things. i thinks models should be a little fatter. anyway, out of point. from tml onwards, i have to be serious bout dieting and losing wt, otherwise mr ng will kill me! talking bout mr ng, he actually specially came all the way back to school on saturday morning cos i msged him saying i wanted to talk to him. so sweet!! he was actually still in bed then. anyway, we talked and i'm at ease again:] i realised i'm not the onli one struggling with my studies. but i should never compare this way. i really need more discipline and determination. maybe i should just study in school till late everyday, since i cant really study well at home. sighs.. this is a tough battle for all of us. but no matter what, we must win this battle. anyways, got tagged by ks to do this. RULES: Each person who gets tagged needs to write a blog post of their own 6 idiosyncrasies as well as clearly state this rule.after stating your 6 weirdness you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names at the bottom of the entry. Don't forget to leave a comment on their tagboards that says “you’re tagged!” and tell them to read your blog for information as to what it means. By the way, idiosyncrasy means:-a characteristic, habit, mannerism, or the like, that is peculiar to an individual. 1. i put lyrics of songs in a clear folder and paste it up on my bathroom so i can sing properly when i bath. 2. i like doing tys. just that i always dun have time to complete learning bout the theory part to do it. 3. i like collecting clean markers :] 4. i like going to my house toilet to shit. it clears my body:] 5. i like things cold be it my room or my food. my tongue gets burnt very easily and i onli study well with aircon on:] 6. i behave like a child at home. 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